Thanks for all the great comments (I am having trouble publishing again) and e-mails. Seems many can relate to our new world of too many "electronic friendships".
As for the inner peace article, it sure felt good reading it. But in daily like I have serious trouble putting this to work. It seems my mind is always worrying. You name it, I worry about it. I'm not sure what is going on with me lately. When I told a friend about my latest disorder- anxiety- she said, "so what, Manhattan itself is like one big anxiety attack."
I used to be a really laid back, calm person. Maybe I need to live somewhere calmer. I dream of living near San Fran or Laguna. Cali has always called me. But my life is here. The job I waited so long for. N and most of all my older parents. So I can't really leave. At least not yet.
The funny thing is if I were to leave, I know I'd miss New York like crazy.
There's nothing like it.
Yesterday we got a taste of springtime. Well, not really..It only reached a high of 43, but when the high has been 28 degrees for months, it felt comfortably fine walking around at lunch time with no jacket. The sun was shining. People seemed happier. The strange lady of our neighborhood was out in full force with her half shirt and big belly hanging out, doing her leg exercises on the street while yelling at her all too scary looking bulldog. I got my only laugh of the day when I saw this. N and I think this is what happens to someone when they live in a 280 sq. foot apartment for 20 years.
Which brings my mind to another worry. Being alone, living here in 20 years. And if that doesn't happen, that means change. Which either means marriage or moving. Which both scare the heck out of me.
You know I saw my first Woody Allen movie the other day. I don't like the creep. But I must admit it was a darn good movie. In Annie Hall Woody plays an overly neurotic, eccentric Manhattanite. (According to N, I might just share some similar neuroses to him- and I couldn't argue on this one).
When Annie moves in with Woody, he begs her to stillkeep her own apartment. "Why would I need to do that?", she asks. He replies: "It's different 'cause you keep your own apartment. Because you know it's there, we don't have to go to it, we don't have to deal with it, but it's like a . . a . . a. . . free-floating life raft ... so we know that we're not married."
A free floating life raft. Seriously I can relate.
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Hi TCG, I'm glad that you're well, well mostly "okay" then. Anxiety, sure why not. Everyone has a bit of that. My wife will be visiting NYC again in mid-June. I'm hopeful that I'll be working F/T by then but we'll see. I have to stay home to look after the dogs and teach a couple of night time classes so I won't get out your way. I'll probably be in Toronto in August if you and N are in the neighborhood. Yes, I realize that NYC is closeby but hotel rates are running $225 Canadian a night. Making it a bit expensive as a side trip but hey you never know. Write me sometime when you have a moment.
Glad to see your back! Funny that you bring up anxiety because I woke up with a bit today. Not sure why.
As for Woody Allen movies, I'm so glad to hear that someone else is like me. In fact you are one up, since you actually saw the whole movie. I've never completed one.
Hey lady, sorry to hear about your anxiety and hope you are doing better! I actually take meds for anxiety so I can relate and if you ever need to talk or vent I'm here! Glad to hear that you are still with N. and hope you are enjoying the start to your summer time! :)
OMG! My boyfriend lives in Tudor City, and we dread our encounters with the half-shirt lady. Her dog is the cutest, though. He thinks you're secretly her, posting about yourself to see who says mean things about you. Because she's that crazy.
So true Jerry.. Soo true.
Hope you're doing well Pat! And yes- you WILL be working full time by then. No trips for me for a while but hopefully someday! Thanks.
Jin- Hope you are feeling better. Not fun waking up with that I know.
I do recommend 1 Woody Allen movie.. Just 1 try to make it through the whole thing. Probably a bad/scary thing that I could relate to his neurotic character at times!
Ocean- thanks somuch. Appreciate it. I know you understand well. Hope your summer is wonderful.
Plump- ahh.. I am not the half shirt lady. Gosh, am I that crazy in my posts that your bf would think that?!! Sadly, half shirt lady's mind is the result of doing drugs.
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